Monday, May 31, 2010

my journey to James 1:27

Nine months ago I came upon a blog that not only stirred my heart for the plight of the orphan but it changed the course of my life. I commuted to Huntsville from Birmingham in my own pursuit of the "American Dream". At first, although I was captivated by this blog, I tucked the starving orphans in the back of my mind because, after all, what was I supposed to do? Over the next few months, I was completely broken over the orphan crisis and God forced me to realize that me finding the blog was no coincidence. I was so broken, in fact, that I stopped asking "what can I do" and I just gave up. I didn't give up on them, I gave up my independence. I gave my life to Christ!! I asked Him to come into my heart and mold me into His image. An image that did not look away from the poor, the destitute, the orphan, the widow, the ones who haven't heard the Gospel.

Just a few months before, in my own pursuit of the "American Dream", I kept Jesus at an arm's length but never really called on Him until I needed Him. Although I had absolutely nothing to draw Him to me, He pursued me. By the end of the year, I found myself throwing up my hands and saying, "here am I, Lord, send me." In early January, I made the commitment to sponsor a child in Zambia, Africa. I was overwhelmed with pride! I thank God every single day that He chose ME to make a permanent difference in sweet Moses' life. I prayed to God that He would work a miracle in my life because I was tired of this "American Dream" that I used to cling so tightly to. On January 11th, I lost my job. Finally, a prayer was answered!! The very next day, the earthquake hit Haiti. I was broken. There I was without a job and PLENTY of time on my hands but no matter who I contacted, I couldn't get down there.

Since then I have been praying, researching, contacting mission groups, and praying some more, in an attempt to find my place. I have given up my car, my apartment, and even my bed in exchange for a sofa in Melinda's basement so I can save money. I am taking Jesus' command in Matthew 28 to make disciples of all nations to heart. Jesus did not merely call us to go to all nations; He created us and commanded us to go to all nations. Have you ever felt that the closer you get to Christ, the more Satan tries to intervene? Well, it's happened for 4 months now. The good news is that God hears prayers. Patience has always been a struggle for me. Sometimes it's hard to remember that He makes all things beautiful in HIS TIME.

I stand in awe of who He puts in my path to help me. I do not know where I am going yet. I am praying and patiently waiting on God to provide a destination. I have opened my heart to serve orphans WHEREVER He sends me so please open yours and help get me there. They deserve to know someone cares. And not just you or me. They need to know the love of Christ. NO CHILD should go to bed hungry or alone tonight and it breaks my heart that they have to.

"Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world." - James 1:27

Please prayerfully consider becoming part of my journey to be Jesus' hands and feet by making a donation for my mission trip by using the DONATE tab on my page or by sending a check/money order to:

Christie Cotney
PO Box 2156
Alexander City, AL 35011